Everything In My Head

Hi.

Being a lesbian myself, it was difficult enough to come to terms with my sexuality. pada awal nya, rasa taknak mengaku diri ni senget, possibly because i thought i was alone struggling with this issue.

apatah lagi kalian , ehem straight convert.

truthfully, although i would positively acknowledge that i am settled as a lesbian, looking back this was quite a painstaking journey with through and through revelation, expectations and whatnot

i sangat mengerti kalian yang baru baru nak berjinak- the difficulty, misery, bewildederment etc

some women immediately identify themselevs as lesbian after having feelings for one woman.

yang lain pulak mungkin berbeza. walau setelah berkali kali senggama dan orgasma hebat dengan permepuan pun, tetap taknak kata diritu lesbian. okay lah.

some will remain attracted to both sexes.

the thing is, sexual orientation is not something you capable of choosing.

the only thing you can choose is to act on it, or not.

there are things you could consider to be sure of your sexuality.

1. FANTASISING

okay, you sometimes fantasise about your sexy hot neighbour or was having the wildest dream with megan fox, let say.

you are not necessarily lesbian.

just deal with it, straight people do have same sex fantasy

2. SEXUAL ENCOUNTER

mungkin kamu pernah terlanjur dengan sepupu kamu .it was a one-time thing. but she end up married with 5 childrens.

jangan semata mata itu, kamu yakin dia lesbian .

bila darah muda ni kadang kadang kita cepat bergairah. haha

consider this, kalian sang straight convert, mungkin ada yang pernah berhubungan intim dengan jejanz tapi , later identify yourselves as lebsian. HOW?

having one intercourse with another woman do not automatically qualify u as a lesbian.

HOWEVER, pelase do not go around and sleep with both sexes ah. awas lah .

konon nak mencoba kan. akibat kau 9 bulan kemudian beranak ai taktau. jangan monyet, jangan. it would not do you any good

cumanya, jika kau girang dengan pengalaman senggama sesama jenis and after thoughtfully considering it, you may realise that you would seek out another same sex relationship.

3. DISCOVERING YOUR SEXUALITY

ada banyaaaaaak cara dan jalan nya. kes mungkin berbeza beza dari seorang ke seorang.

macam ai, ai yakin ai begini semenjak kecil lagi. semenjak gadis bernama dahlia. titik.

yang lain, mungkin dah beranak pinak, baru tersedar dari lamunan.

masing masing berbeza. find the ways to discover it.

disamping itu, if you are unwilling to label yourself, tak mengapa. you dont have to if you dont want to.

4. SEXUALITY= complexity

mrasa !!

serius. add maths lagi senang dari seksualiti ya’ll.

kaedahnya,there is room for every degree of sexuality

- kamu mungkin lesbian sejati, menolak sekerasnya hubungan di luar kotak sesama jenis

-kamu mungkin lesbian lite lite, bila hati diketuk lelaki yang sesuai, terus kau esok jadi straight

-kamu mungkin in between both sexes, nah, biseksual kali kau.

kan dah kata , benda ni rumit.

5. PAST ROMANTIC EXPERIENCES

with the opposite sex bley?

how did you feel when the guy hold your hand? atau pun, bila dia ciom kau ke? kau turn on ke kau geli mat mat mat?

bagaimana pula bila kak kendu pegang tangan kau? nah, bandingkan.

kamu lebih gembira dengan siapa, lebih riang melakukan aktiviti2 dengan siapa, gitu la. kau buatlah kajian tentang diri kau sendiri bolei?

at the end of the experiment, find what gender draws u the most , who turns u on.

kalau kau tak pernah menjalinkan hubungan dengan sebarang jantan, kau skip jelah point ni ye? jangan kau esok menjalinkan hubungan dengan rakan sekerja kau pulak

semata mata nak mencoba kann?

gigih uols.

6. EXAMINE YOUR BEHAVIOURS

satu lagi konsep experiment kan? suka sangats bereksperimentasi.

kalau kau lone ranger, kau takyah nak campur tangan lah. malas aku nak layan.

kau ingat tak zaman sekolah tu, kau ade geng 5 sekawan? ke sepuluh? ke lebihdari itu? hebat.

has there been a girl you have extraattention for? kau ala possesif dengan dia. ada tak?

asal makan malam je, kau belikan dia nasik tapau. dia nak ke kelas, kau hantarkan, walhal kelas kau malam nanti. dia nak gi dorm sebelah pun kau nak temankan, konon risau.

bla bla bla

perilaku cam gitu ah.

satu je ai nak cakap, SESUATU SANGATS!

7. YOU ARE NOT ALONE

ramai je lagi lesbian, gay, bisex, transgender, u name it kat dunia ni. jangan feeling kau special. talking to trusted friends, family members atau sapa pun is a good way to help u with this sexuality issues.

tapi kau kena pandai pilih lah. kalau kau pegi ngan ustazah yang homophobic, haruslah dia cerca kau sebab kau suka kawan sejenis kau.

jangan carik mereka yang ada tendency untuk memberikan views yang bias .berhati hati je nak memilih.

jangan taktau ramai je orang yang feeling bagus ni. karang kau dihina dan dicerca pulak dikhalayak ramai. kau jugak yang depress.

hati hati je ek?

susah susah cari je ai. okay. tiber promosi

tak pun, search for it online. ada baaaaaanyak pengetahuan dan pengalaman berguna yang boleih dikongsi bersama di alam maya.

akhir kata, sebelum ai mengundur diri, beberapa tips tambahan yang berguna untuk kalian the straight convert, jangan singkirkan rakan rakain lurus anda or the straight world. it is healthy to develop and maintain relationships with a diverse group.

you may want to choose your lesbian friends wisely. sama je macam mencarik kawan kawan lurus kan. kau jangan main hentam kromo je semata mata dia tu lesbian, kau kawan. walhal kau taktau dia tu ketua mafia mana tatau. ngeri.

berhati hati okay?
selamat datang ke dunia lesbian !!

hehehe

warm welcome ,

dian wal qatariah