wonder what it feels being constantly anonymous in blogsphere? could it possibly be? if yes then what are the benefits possessed as opposed to being known?

for the first couple of years ai was involved in dunia senget virtually, my preference was to stay anonymous

therefore, not much of revelation of myself to the people that ai chatted with. my thought at that time was, yeah, lebih selamat to stay this way — dig as much as possible of others info but keep yours at safer place.

in the retrospective, if ai did not show up at cool’s place and uncover the truth behind the veils of dian, sampai la ni la orang speku speki ai ni pengkid kot.

hahah. takde lah.

ai tergamam seketika bilamana eid mengatakan ai ni kakKid. hampir rahim mak gugur. kasar sangat ke ai ols?

one occassion that never will ai forget bila nak berjumpaan kawan senget baru. adalah seorang forumer ni kalau ym ngan ai bukan main lagi citer kat ai dia tu vass. mak percaya jah bulat bulat.

bila ai jumpa dia, mak pingsan. terus pose insaf di sejadah tanak jumpa dia lagi.

tapi itu tak pernah melunturkan semangat hanglipo ai nak kenal kawan kawan yang macam ai. ai terus jadik gay-getter, so to speak.

kejadian kat rumah cool was the 2nd official encounter lah. starting from thereon, ai have enriched my phonebook with forumers’ phone number.

at last, ai got weary and fed up. keghairahan hanglipo sikit sikit luntur lah.

bosan agaknya dengan dyke dramas ; tak sangka lesbian ni pun ramai yang DQ. kejadah pun, semakin ramai yang membawa haluan masing masing. a ah la, kalau dah drama sana sini, harus berlaku perpecahan. cliques mushrooming like never ending.

orang lain yang DQ, weols yang pening. baeklah mak membawa diri jugak.tambahan pula, kalau kau main kawan je ngan semua orang acam PakLah nye konsep tu, mesti ada yang hamek kesempatan.

it caught me. therefore, ai rest my case.

semenjak dari itu, ai dah slow down meeting new people. adalah sikit sikit, tak rancak macam 2 tahun lepas.

sebab ai pengawas garang kat forum dan owner of a blog yang kontoversi ngan gambar gambar 15sx, mrasa lah glemer kejap.

self appraisal kaedahnya.

tapi ai biasa biasa aja orangnya. honestly am very choosy when it comes to making friends. ai lebih suka observe dahulu, then only within few outings baru bolei conclude ai bole tak kawan ngan orang ni bla bla.kalau di lubuk hati tu rasa cam leh kawan, mrasa lah ai salu sms ajak sana sini. mateila liq dan pasangan mangsa baru

kalau tak bole blah, memang ai tanak rapat rapat kan saf ni. sebab ai ni memang takleh cover ekspresi muka kalau tak sukak tuh. god knows, how ai hate hypocrasy.

alas, it does not mean ai put standards on people to befriend me. takde. takde. ai kawan ngan sesapa sahaja, from every walks of life , cuma yang ai nak observe adalah ketelusan dan ketulusan hati. cece acam carik jodoh pulak .

ini mengingatkan mak kepada sang KB lagi. mateila bosan kan. asek asek naik je nama dia.

ai ingat lagik we chatted about music, tu je subject utama perbualan weols.

takda pun plan nak jumpa kejadah. chat kijap, introduction light light , that was it.

tapi dah jodoh kitorang kuat kot, we met at sekapal’s place few days after that. unplan. tau tau je kuar dialog, “lar, kau ka dil?“

ai love dil, as a friend. ai nampak dia ikhlas kawan ngan mak. of course, beyond that, dia tak feeling lebih kat ai, vice versa. and that just proves how honest she was.

oh nok, happy valentine’s day. mak sayang uols. *mateila stetmen*

mak tau uols dah BFF ngan eem. ayyo jeles kah ai? haha.

hey, untuk korang semua, selamat menyambut hari kekaseh. kalau takda kekaseh, sambutlah ngan kawan kawan korang. nanti dah ada kekaseh , sah sah takda masa nak deting ngan kawan kan

so itu aja untuk harini, kita kembali ke konti .

*trus kuar lagu klasik nasional, klasik nasional*

oit, esok ai ke cameron highlands, kalau ada yang kesana pehtu ternampak ai, jangan malu belanja ai teh tarik ye.

ai rela

auw!

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